I Am Legend

WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:40:28 -0700

The souls of virgins on All Hollows Eve.

At a horse show

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:36:22 -0700

Warmup ring:
Horse: no mommy no I swear I tired look Im going to move like a snail
Me: oh okay *stops*
Actual ring:
Horse: HAHAH I LIED
Me: .. damn

dzlv: I’ve avoided listening to this song ever since turning 25...

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:33:22 -0700

dzlv:

I’ve avoided listening to this song ever since turning 25 last year. It’s been one of my favorite songs since I was probably 13 or 14. On the eve of my 26th birthday, I figured I’d give it a listen.

I remember riding in the car with my ex-girlfriend many years ago when this song came on. The lyric, “even at 25, you’ve got to start sometime,” stood out to me despite 25 being so far away. Being merely an observer, I’ve always felt like I’ve been missing out in life. What little friends I have left are getting married and/or settled, people are finding their careers, starting families and moving on. I feel like I’ve been left behind by everyone else. I first began feeling this way in middle school, when I noticed how my peers couldn’t wait to go out and party, meet new people, try new things, and get in a little trouble. Meanwhile, i was always the homebody who hated growing up, whom preferred a less rowdy environment, so none of that appealed to me. All that is fine, though - I’m pretty secure with myself, and I know that this is just how I’m wired. But it’s the other stuff…it’s all those chances to meet new people, the opportunities to have a better life for my future, the celebratory times that made you feel happy and alive. I, with some exceptions, missed out on those things. I makes me feel so lost with others when my eccentric interests already made me feel alien to begin with.

Though sad from my perspective, I appreciated the optimism suggested in this song’s tone. It basically says that it’s not necessarily too late to start again, to gain the confidence you need to get what you want out of life, and to take hold of the wheel no matter how windy the road may be.

Are you gonna to live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you going to waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you’ll miss out

I would probably do many great things if I had the initiative others seem to have. But something has been missing in me since birth that has prevented me from reaching my potential. I don’t know how to explain it, but it’s almost like I can sense its emptiness even though I never had it to begin with. I don’t have a problem doing things, I just always need a navigator to do them. I miss out on seeing all my favorite bands because I have nobody to go with. I never meet anyone new because I seldom have the opportunity to meet them. I dodged going to college because it meant going to school far away, being confused at paperwork and protocol (huge problems for me), and just generally feeling completely lost. I just never feel like I know what the hell I’m doing. I feel like these things all contribute to whatever condition I have that prevents me from wanting to go out and live life.

It’s funny though, because I’ve gained more confidence in myself over the past few years despite all this. I just reached that point where I began asking myself what I had to lose. I think that’s the key to confidence - put your own mortality in the back of your mind. Think about how much you AREN’T going to care about friend requesting that girl on Facebook, making awkward small talk with that person in line, complimenting strangers, losing at some game, etc. in a few years. I can distinctly remember the sinking depression I’d go in when I was younger when I couldn’t bowl for crap. I used to feel suicidal because I sucked at bowling. How dumb is that? Well, it had less to do with bowling and more to do with feeling like I was total garbage at everything I ever attempted because I didn’t find success.

You just have to remain objective and look at things from another mental perspective. Am I unskilled, or have I just not been discovered? Do people not like me, or am I too shy and reserved to get them to notice me? I think part of growing up into a secure person is being able to look at life in a more reasonable, less misanthropic way. Realize that you cannot rely on others, even if you feel you should be able to, for everything. People will occasionally disappoint or outright take advantage of you. That’s life - you gotta decide who and what is worth it.

Even though I’m feeling bummed about being 26 (I began writing this at 25), at the very least, I think I finally get the meaning of this song, and I’m one step closer to understanding who I am and how I can somehow wedge myself into the puzzle of life.

I am better than what I’ve allowed myself to become.

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Fri, 24 May 2013 23:26:58 -0700

I think I’m going to delete my twitter.

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:23:26 -0700

I think I’m going to delete my twitter.

Further On (Up The Road)// Johnny Cash

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:22:26 -0700

Further On (Up The Road)// Johnny Cash

abeautifulcrazy: Filled With Folly | via Tumblr on...

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:21:30 -0700

abeautifulcrazy:

Filled With Folly | via Tumblr on @weheartit.com - http://whrt.it/ZjR8rT

"Make lots of noise Kiss lots of boys Or kiss lots of girls If that’s something you’re into When the..."

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:20:27 -0700

“Make lots of noise
Kiss lots of boys
Or kiss lots of girls
If that’s something you’re into
When the straight and narrow
Gets a little too straight
Roll up a joint, or don’t
Just follow your arrow
Wherever it points”

- Kacey Musgraves “Follow Your Arrow” (via louboutinsandashotgun)

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Fri, 24 May 2013 23:19:53 -0700

thefingerfuckingfemalefury: captkylej: thefingerfuckingfemalefu...

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:19:00 -0700

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

captkylej:

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

tallestsilver:

geersart:

Sketch color 3

omg Kate I love yooou

THIS IS GOING TO BE THE BEST DAY OF HER LIFE ;D

And of Diana’s too…

“You don’t have to be naked for this…”

“Ah, but I don’t have to be NOT naked for it either? Ahhh?”

And there’s no way that Diana can honestly claim that she WANTS her to put clothes on right now…

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Fri, 24 May 2013 23:17:13 -0700

superchalmers: americanninjax: sick-amongst-pure: This is as...

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:09:18 -0700

superchalmers:

americanninjax:

sick-amongst-pure:

This is as cool as ads get. This is radical, and I feel so totally justified using that word.

IBIZIOUS ENERGY DRINK by LIMÓN ESTUDIOS

This video just gave me a mullet…

Still the greatest

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Fri, 24 May 2013 21:39:48 -0700

disneyprincest: i hate when you voluntarily tell your parents some information about your life...

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:39:37 -0700

disneyprincest:

i hate when you voluntarily tell your parents some information about your life because you think you can trust them and then they bitch at you for it like congrats you have guaranteed that i will never tell you anything ever again.

OR THEY TELL OTHER PEOPLE.

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Fri, 24 May 2013 21:39:11 -0700

parents: you spend too much time on the computer, it's like you're addicted

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:27:36 -0700

parents: you spend too much time on the computer, it's like you're addicted
me: fine can i go out
parents: no

toomanyforgottendreams: kerilu: mtnduh: Coca-Cola’s long...

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:18:46 -0700

toomanyforgottendreams:

kerilu:

mtnduh:

Coca-Cola’s long experimented with its vending machines, trying to make them more technologically advanced than the average soda-spitter-outer.

In the past, they’ve been known to give you a beverage only if you give them a hug, or if you dance or sing in front of them. Now, the beverage giant is attempting a much loftier goal: world peace.

Behind Coke’s Attempt to Unite Indians and Pakistanis with Vending Machines

this video is tears — like cryingidon’tcareitmustnotbecapitalismihopeit’sreal tears it’s so stunning

wah cool!

This video is so beautiful. I don’t think a commercial has ever made me cry before…

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Fri, 24 May 2013 21:14:00 -0700

clickshuffle: SAFE AND SOUND - CAPITAL CITIES Genre: Indie...

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:11:16 -0700

clickshuffle:

SAFE AND SOUND - CAPITAL CITIES

Genre: Indie Rock, Synthpop, Indie Pop

I find joy in discovering great Indie bands. First time I heard this song I knew I’m gonna love them! Love the beat, amazing voice, one good danceable track. I searched their other songs and I am officially hooked!

japert: DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT ONE OF YOUR FAVORITE DEAD CHARACTERS SO SUDDENLY YOU JUST

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:10:16 -0700

japert:

DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT ONE OF YOUR FAVORITE DEAD CHARACTERS SO SUDDENLY YOU JUST